Thursday, November 17, 2016

Beginning of September

"You are pregnant" was the thought that came into my mind during the night.

It was the beginning of september in Idaho. I had been anticipating the monthly doom days of being a girl.  The week just didn't seem to come though, I didn't think much of it as being late wasn't unusual.

Then one night I woke up, it was still dark but almost morning time.  I had the distinct thought that "I was pregnant." I didn't feel sick but just felt it in my head and heart. I laid in bed in denial and pushed the thought away and tried to sleep more.

I couldn't go back to sleep though. I prayed that I was pregnant, then I prayed that I wasn't really pregnant. I wrested with the idea of being actually pregnant and if this could be happening in our life right now. I just laid there in bed and watched the light slowly enter our bedroom.

By morning time, I came to the conclusion that we couldn't be,  but thought I would take a test just to get it off my mind.

I got the test and went to the the bathroom. The horizontal negative line appeared right away and I relaxed inside. . . Then the vertical line slowly appeared intercepting the horizontal. It was positive. We were having a baby.

I took the test into the bedroom. Riley was up and all ready for our morning run. I showed him the test and we both just looked at each other.

The moments after were precious. I told him we should still go run, but he took me in his arms and we just laid back down in bed and cuddled and talked.

Our life shifted in that moment. The confirmation that you are going to be parents changes everything. It's no longer just the two of you together, but three. You don't ever go back to not being parents, it forever. It's was an overwhelming feeling of change, happiness, and shock.

The thought of having a baby makes life better. Picturing us holding a baby, that is half him and half me makes my heart so happy.

Sunday, November 13, 2016


There is a tiny human growing inside of me!
We are pretty excited and nervous at the thought of being parents. I'm in the second trimester and been feeling pretty good. Our baby is the size of an orange. 

 We found out we were pregnant literally just before flying to Japan. The news was a bit of a shock and intensified everything about moving internationally.  However, being here it's been the best news and perfect timing. I'm glad Japan is so high tech and everyone is so kind. I also especially love that they do ultrasounds each doctor's visit here. . . It's been pretty amazing seeing a wiggly person moving inside of me.  The baby's hand has gone strait up every single time, kinda like waving. . .  
I'm in love. 

Our Ohana is getting another member this coming May!