Saturday, July 14, 2018

twenty-eight wishes


Twenty Eight Wishes

This month I turned 28! That sounds so stinkin' old— only a couple more years left in my 20s.  I still feel like I’m a kid though and just kinda stuck between these two worlds of growing up. 

I keep thinking of one decade ago it’s neat to see how much has happened and how life progresses and was better than I could of even imagined then. I can't help of thinking back and being so grateful, but also wishing I could go back in time and tell myself a few things and avoid some pain and heartache. So, I decided to write twenty-eight wishes and advice for my 18 year old self (kinda like that country song to his 17 year old self). 

Ten years ago, I was entering my senior year of high school and about to face one of the most painful years of my life. If I was to go back to my 18 year old self these are the things I would tell her:


Hello 18.

1. YOUR SENIOR YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL WILL JUST PLAIN STINK, BUT YOU WILL MAKE IT. This year you will have a friend pass-away, another friend drop-out and go to rehab, you will experience depression. You will get in a car wreck with a bus and have the world's lamest boyfriend, but you WILL MAKE IT OUT ALIVE AND ARE STRONGER THAN YOU THINK. College is much better. . . . I promise.

2. Actually if this is a letter to myself, I would DUMP that boy right now. BOYFRIENDS ARE SO OVERRATED.  I know you feel like you need a boyfriend to be happy, but you don't. . . you will go through a new boyfriend every year and it turns out the one summer you spend single is actually the best one in terms of quality dates and fun (you even kiss two different boys the same day!) Ohh, and your first engagement won't work out, but don't worry. . . you will find someone even better and marry him in the temple at age 24.

3. Wear your retainer, save yourself from get braces again. . . 

4. Home is truly the best, enjoy it, you will miss it! You will spend the next 9 years after you graduate away from home for the most part. You will live in Hawaii, Alaska, New York, and Japan over the next decade, as fun as that sounds. . . you will miss Idaho and being home more than you ever know... enjoy it now.

5.  Wake up early, read your scriptures every morning and pray- your day will be so much better, i promise. Best habit. 

6. You mom and dad are usually right about EVERYTHING, they actually give really good advise and want your best. Listen to them-- tell them you love them more often. Give backscratches and feet rubs whenever they want-- they work too hard just for you/siblings.

7. Don't take up longboarding, even if you think it is cool. You will crash and burn and won't ever fully recover. 

8. Think before you speak, and look people in the eye. . . 

9. Pay attention in History class, your husband would appreciate it. 

10. There is a fine line between being self-critical and improving yourself, and being critical and causing harm to your spirit. You can pretty much just eliminate all critical thinking actually. . . and replace with positive affirmations and some yoga.

11. Try new things, you are really talented. 

12. You are a Daughter of God first, remember that.

13. The music you listen too is important and creates a mood. 

14. Take moments to pause and think about the "bigger picture."

15. If something is wrong, God will give you clarity, never doubts.

16. All you need is 30 seconds of insane courage in so many situations.

17. Avoid rush and haste, eat slowly, chew and enjoy food while you can.

18.  You will face a lot of challenges, they will either bring you closer to God or destroy you. You decide though.

19. Everyone has some Child of God in them. Try to find it.

20.  Finish your sentences. 

21. Learn your scripture masteries. . . it would be super helpful on your mission. . . 

22.  Oh yah, you will go on a mission and come home early. It will be the best 8 months ever, you wont understand why you got sick and had to come home. . . but it will make sense eventually and you do eventually get better too. 

23. When you live in Hawaii realize that bikinis are super over-rated and one pieces stay-on better in the ocean anyways. . . 

24. Steer thoughts away from self, and serve others more. This is what makes you most happy. 

25. A walk outside around dusk is always a good idea. 

26. When you get dressed and look nice, you feel nice. 

27. Start fresh each week, repent more often and continually make goals and be consistent. 

28. It always seems to be hard before it gets better. For ever good choice, there is normally Satan there trying to get inside too. Don't let him in, it always gets better. 

Thursday, June 28, 2018

Luke Lately- 13 Months


Every month I find myself saying “THIS IS MY FAVORITE AGE!” (Yes, all caps). And every month it just gets more fun. I seriously love the stage Luke is in right now. Not sure if it can get better?

It's June in Japan which means lots of rainy days. Have you ever seen a child discover a puddle for the very first time? It is priceless! Luke went from timid, careful step to full blown puddle sitting and splashing in seconds— true childhood bliss right there, and every puddle along the way was just the greatest thing. This boy loves water, always has. 

The park is still our sanctuary and Luke’s favorite place to be. He started RUNNING this month- he goes full speed ahead, not looking down only forwards and goes faster than his little legs can carry him (which has ended up with a couple big goose-eggs as a result). He is chasing birds too which he calls "dog-dogs" and loves playing ball. Dad is his favorite, and leaving for work each day is becoming harder and harder and more apparent for him. 

When we are home, you can usually find Luke in his kitchen cabinet.  He has turned into quite the "house-elf" collecting his precious items and storing them away and pulling them out and storing them again over and over. In the cabinet today is his beloved orange sippy cup, empty cinnamon container you can twist, his musical train, kitchen tongs and a spoon, a toy laptop from Nana, and two balls.

This month Luke had a minor surgery and was very brave and did well! He also got a few big molars, and lots, and lots of mosquito bites.... he gets bites every night? WHY?! Probably because he has the sweetest blood and sweetest soul. . . 


Such a cheese.

 The Messy
The Happy before the Sad
 The Sad.




Wednesday, June 27, 2018

Hydrangea Days




The hydrangea flowers were pretty epic this year! This is just another post with a lot of flower pictures . . . Maybe it is because we live in such an urban area, but every green plant and flower is the prettiest thing ever. I can't get over the little details and colors and patterns.

Also, these little flower pot, side walk gardens are literally my favorite thing in Tokyo. 

Disneyland with Starks


June 5, 2018: We went to Tokyo Disneyland with some of our best friends in Japan. It was such a fun and happy day together! The kids all did really good and could go on most rides which was awesome. The thing that impressed me about Disneyland this time was the amount of insane creativity in each ride, it truly is a magical place.  The favorite rides of the day included: The Winnie the Pooh Ride, Thunder Mountain, and the classical 'It's a Small World' was Luke's favorite.